They say that the closest ones to you will hurt you. And sometimes, you do not realize that this too is applied to the people who raised you, your family. Because you have this belief that your parents are perfect, should be perfect. And this has happened to me. Unwillingly, without wanting to accept this, it was something I was forced to accept. Maybe because I was naive and did not think it would be possible.
Is not your family supposed to protect you and shield your falls? I guess this is not always so. Sometimes, they are actually the ones to drive the dagger deeper into your heart until you realize that they too are just people. Imperfect just like others. The ones you once looked up to just become people. People who struggle with their choices and everyday lives as well. People who try to make ends meet, and will hesitate in the teachings they imposed upon you as they too fall short. And you are left to deal with the heartbreak and disappoint when your eyes are cleared of the fog.
But, even when this happens, it should not mean you lose hope in them. It does not mean they love you any less or you love them any less. In fact, what it does mean is that you use this revelation as a step towards growth. You plant the seed and begin the understanding of people because that is where you start. With people you close to. With people you live with. With people you call family.
